Cadence

Hello everyone, IT has yet again been a while since I wrote up here. I'm hoping that will change. But I wanted to stop by here and write something because I know I haven't in a while.

What has been going on?

Until recently, more of the same. We stayed at Z's mother's house until the beginning of this month. She didn't kick us out ... I'm not quite brave enough to fight against a woman who boasts about her ability to shoot guns and is known for doing controlling or intimidating things ... but I am brave enough to get the hell out the first time the opportunity presents itself. We are now staying in an extended stay. It's a bit expensive, but to be completely honest, I'd rather do bad all by myself and have nobody but myself to blame if something goes wrong, than to do bad with the help of someone else, and have them to blame for all the things my life lacks. I prefer accountability toward myself whenever possible. I don't know how long it will be before we can stream again, the wifi here is rather shitty. I was actually worried I wouldn't be able to get on here to put this up, but I managed, it's only text. All our other links are still there, at the bottom like always. I am also still playing games when the system lets me ... though cloud gaming may be impossible unless we go back to the house of screams ... they have better wifi. If we do go back though, it will likely only be for a few hours, so I probably won't take the computer because if we're going there it's to do laundry and then talk to the family for a bit before leaving.

Future Plans

I plan, assuming we get the chance to stay here semipermanently, to finally get my ID renewed, and then finally, finally get a job. I was going to do it in Tyler, but the landlady rushed us out. We found out she wasn't actually trying to sell the house, she just took the first opportunity she got to kick us out so she could give the place to her son. Z knew that before we left I think. We conveniently never got the chance to clean up the worst of the mess ... a deep freezer they gave us and which was promptly filled with the messes of past roommates. When Z's stepfather (I'm too nice so I avoid giving out names) went to empty it, he promptly closed it and declared that it a mess and stated he would not be touching that without a hazmat suit. We don't have a hazmat suit, so the deep freezer got left behind. Jennifer was so mad, she texted us a month later complaining and bitching up a storm about how she had to keep the electricity on for a whole month because she had to get a “professional” to clean it out. the professional she was referring to? That would be her son, the same person to whom she was giving the house. She tried to get us to pay her, but since she decided to try and communicate about us not paying her to Z's mother, I refused to do it. If you want something from me, you go to me, not a middle man, no. Nice try though. If you're reading this (she's not, I could only be so lucky) I wish you well with the microwave we accidentally left. I wish you well with the deep freezer. And may your closets always be filled with things you don't believe belong there.

What the hell was that madness?

Thanks for asking, random voice in my head. That madness relates to the whole reason she got mad at us in the first place. She came over to inspect the house, to see if we'd cleaned it. We had, it was clean. However, she decided to get absolutely infuriated ... and I mean blind crazy bitch rage infuriated ... ready for this? Because we had used our closets as storage spaces for boxes of things we didn't need out in the main house. Things like vacuum cleaners, cleaning supplies, chemicals we didn't want to leave in the middle of the floor, bathroom cleaning accessories, shower accessories, and a bunch of other stuff. Her comment was “Closets are for clothes, not for whatever this is.” And from then on she would either try to get us to pay extra money for random things, or just flat out tell us we needed to leave. The drama was complicated, and I still don't understand fully what she was enraged about. Closets are closets, folks. They can be filled with whatever your heart desires to fill them with. I sometimes wish we still had the closets from that house ... but I always knew Tyler was never going to be our final destination. I've grown to believe nobody really has one of those ... or at least ... not until they're really old. Some people get that lucky, but it's very rare, especially in this world ... and really this country ... people are always messing things up, and trying to change shit around. It's ... quite irritating. I'd just gotten used to stuff being eligible on EBT for instance ... but Trumpty Dumpty decided to have a great fall ... directly into the American food budget. Tyrannical piece of shit, that man. Made pretty much all sugar items that would help with my hypoglycemia ineligible. Soda, ineligible. His reasoning? To manage obesity in America. Rather reminds me of OBama and his wife's healthy lunches thing. Changed everything good about school lunches ... and I doubt it was actually for the American public. School lunches are funded by the government ... and a lot of the stuff she changed would have likely made lunches for schools cheaper. Or ... at least ... if the things she made us eat weren't cheaper, they should have been. Gross. Back in my childhood, some people were so into the healthy school lunches program they'd try to control what my mother sent in with me. I hated that. We were third graders making fun of a first lady. I heard one kid say “First Lady Tasteless” at one point, though I suspect based on the level of that insult, said child may have gotten that mess from his parents. Why the parents would be insulting ... actually parents insult political figures in front of their kids all the time. My mother insulted Hillary Clinton because she was a woman and my mother is ... a mouthpiece for whoever gives her what she wants ... I'm not sure what Trump was giving her in 2016, but she would frequently go on rants and rage sessions about Hillary, most of which I tuned out because by that point I'd come to the conclusion that as a teenager I could do absolutely nothing about the political climate, and therefore had no reason to care. Yeah ... I was a naive idiot back then. Turns out I have every reason to care when my food is concerned. It's a struggle to get caffeine now ... we're switching to teas more often nowadays ... and the hotel we're in is actually rather easy to maintain. Plus they have housekeeping here that comes in once a week ... or is supposed to. They tried to last week but I believe we had a show up too loud to hear them knocking on the door. It's actually rather nice here. The room could be larger, but for what we paid, it's not terrible. I was nervous, because the ratings and reviews implied this was an unclean place. Just goes to show, you can't judge a book by its cover ... or a hotel by its rating. We actually met some really nice people our first day here, I won't give names because I don't know if they want their names out there like that, I haven't been given permission. But it's a man and his wife, they have several businesses and know pretty much everyone here. This place is called a hotel, but from the week I've been here, it's really more a long term home for a lot of the people here. That's how these people know so many people.

In More Recent news

Though I can get around the extended stay, including the lobby, by myself now, I recently took a particularly hard fall and had to go to the hospital because the pain was bad. I injured the spot between my hip and pelvis, and can now barely walk. I don't really have a choice though. They discharged me on crutches, because their competence and wisdom truly knows no bounds, despite the fact that bearing weight on the thing hurts a bitch. I asked for a wheelchair, most hospitals have those to give out, and I got told no. That's when they gave me the crutches. For those who have never used crutches, having them still means I have to put weight on the thing it hurts to put weight on. They don't really let you take the weight off, they're more a support to better direct your weight instead of letting it fall everywhere and ending up with a hunchback. So ... in other words, not the best, but I will manage. I always do. As always, I hope you enjoyed today's post. Not the most enjoyable thing, but someone told me on mastodon that even though they don'[t seem relevant to me, these life updates are read by someone. And speaking of mastodon, if you're interested in receiving random updates from me, you can follow me at [email protected] from any mastodon instance. I will, as always, be putting up a post from my mastodon with the link, and boosting the post from here so those who follow my main mastodon can see what I'm doing. I hope that as time goes on I'll be able to put more of these up, I enjoy condensing my life down to a post on a page from time to time. As I mentioned in another post, stats aren't the easiest to access here, so when I can't find the button, I don't worry about how many views I'm getting. That was never the point of the posts I make. As usual, all the links in the signature portion of this post work, and I will be trying to answer more people when or if I get messages. The shopping page, and my regular linktree, are also up there, along with paypal, cashapp and ko-fi. If anyone happens to be feeling generous, those are always open for donations. If you don't, or can't help, there is no obligation and no pressure, I leave the links up there for those who want to use them. Either way, when I can, I will continue to come back with more updates. If someone has a request of something they want me to write about, I'm open to that as well, though depending on my passion for the project, some of those may take me longer to get to. But I will try to get to everyone who sends me messages as soon as I can. I hope you got something out of the post, and will see you in the next one.

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Hello everyone, It's been a few days since I last updated this thing, but we're back. Writing sometimes helps the stress, and I wanted to give an update on how things are going. We definitely have to move within the next 8 days. Technically 9, but the landlady is being confusing so we are aiming to be out of here by the 30th. Let me tell you ... I'm looking forward to being in a place where I have a professional lease agreement. Sometimes they can be a bit more restrictive, but at least I know what is and isn't allowed, and if someone's screaming at me, I know what I did. In related but slightly different news, we are also working on packing everything down into bins and totes and boxes ... We've done this before. We'll manage, but if anyone's reading this and feeling generous, our support links are below in the signature. We have to buy specific bins for various electronic devices that we don't want in cardboard boxes because we don't know what will happen to them during transport. Lots of stuff we have to be careful with, glassware, neatly shaped knickknacks that tend to be breakable, and more specifically, my grandmother's music boxes. So we're probably going to have to buy bubble wrap for all that. I'm going to have to make some speedy magic with the washer and dryer which is going to absolutely murder my back ... that won't be fun but we do what we have to do to survive. It's going to be difficult, but we will manage. Unfortunately though, that likely means I won't be streaming until we move. If I can manage it you may get some variant of an audio vlog, or I may record various things and just do a catch-up/deep dive when I get to wherever I end up. Yeah, we don't even know yet, but that's the next step. You will most likely get more consistent updates from this space for the time being ... I know I can post from mobile on here, it'll be a pain in the ass unless I have a keyboard from my phone ... but I know I can do it worst comes to worst. As always, I hope you got ... erm ... something out of this, can't say this post was particularly enjoyable, sorry about that. Feel free to visit the links below ... I'm slowly adding things to the shopping page for those of you who are interested in such a thing, and the YouTube has plenty of old content. If I have some time I may, possibly, set some old content to scheduled uploads so you all have something to watch for at least a few days after I pack down the computer. But I don't know if I'll have the time to get that done in the next 8 days along with everything else I have to do, I'm frankly surprised I have a free moment to type this blog post up. And I'm moving my fingers just as fast as they can possibly go, Z's probably wondering what the hell I'm doing. Relying purely on the volume of the music and the little buzz that I get when I misspell a word, so I can correct it. Yep, I'm about as stressed as I get, running on pure fumes and adrenaline. That's ... not healthy. Wait, I was doing an outro, good grief. Sorry all, back to the outro. Thank you for reading, feel free to visit the links below, feel free to support us financially if you have the ability and desire to do so, those links are also below. All funds will go to packing supplies, likely security deposits and the rent for the first month depending on if we have enough for such a thing. Oh ... one more thing, just in case you wish to visit this page, I'll put it here. This is the link to a GoFundMe that a pair of friends organized for us. Visit the GoFundMe here See you in the next update.

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I didn't expect to be back here today. I honestly expected that I'd be busy ... and I probably should be. But there's not really shit I can do about any of this right now ... except what I'm already doing. Besides, I promised you guys I'd come back with something more positive. And ... actually I have that something, and it's probably something everyone already knows, but I didn't ... because ... well ... I'm rather used to things running in a certain way. You probably don't know what that means ... and that's okay. I don't write well when stressed.

What the Hell am I Talking About?

Today, I finally figured out how federation with this blog works. When I first started this blog, I couldn't figure out why in the world I could see the user profile for my blog but never see any of the blog's posts through my mastodon. It .. erm ... turns out you have to follow the blog's user profile, or whatever it's officially called, to get the posts. So in order for me to get my own posts, I ended up having to follow myself. How do comments work? I ... actually don't know. I'm probably going to talk to myself for a bit and see how that works. Until now, I've never had a way to share the blog's user profile.

The Annoying Part

The ... unfortunate ... part is that when rant.li posts my posts in a way mastodon can read them, it posts them ... in full. Meaning that my giant rambles, neatly separated by headings, read on mastodon like a large, very huge, enormous pile of annoyance. Well ... maybe that's just my opinion. So ... for those of you reading, if you want to subscribe to getting over 10000 character dumps into your mastodon feed at completely random times, here's the strangely complicated process. Actually, there's really two ways to do it.

Method 1.

Follow the blog account when I boost it. Yes, despite how ... convoluted it may be, I will be boosting the blog with my main mastodon account. So if you follow me there, you should theoretically be able to follow the blog when you see me boosting it.

Method 2.

If you can't or don't see the blog posts being boosted from my main account, you would want to do the following. Go on your instance's website. At the top is a search box, search for [email protected] ... and it will provide you results. The profile you're looking for will show the same bio that shows at the top of the main blog page.

Comments

Since to a lot of you these may start appearing as normal posts, please feel free to leave comments. I don't know if I'll see them, but if you haven't gotten a response within 48 hours, feel free to bug me on my main mastodon. And with that, I am out of here for the time being. I will possibly be back later with another ramble, or tomorrow ... just depends on how I feel about my life.

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CW: erm ... crude ... language? also drama. Hello again everyone, I actually managed to come back two times in one week, or ... sort of. two times in the same 3 day period at the very least. Anyway, I just wanted to write a quick update to you all because I'm trying, again, with this consistency thing.

What Have I Been Doing?

A whole lot of stressful things honestly. Our landlady has decided that instead of conducting herself like a sensible adult, she'd like to push us out of the house by ... turning off the electricity on the day she told us to be out by. So we've been looking for a new place to go ... it's definitely happening now whether we want it to or not. This is the second time someone's just decided nope, we're not working with you, and chosen to sell a place we were living out from under us.

Ramblings

CW: This bit is a bit heavy, feel free to skip down to the area that says “Back to the Update” if you're not in the headspace to read about drama right now. When we moved here, my father told me that this house would be mine forever, that he'd pay off the house. Several years later, he did the same thing he's always done. He cheated on his wife, and just like every other time, the woman involved used her power with the court system to “bleed him dry” apparently. As he buys a new house for him and his number 6, and goes out to dinner every other day. Sometimes I wonder if he ever got over Stephanie. He was never big on posting on Facebook before her ... but after her he's been weirdly obsessed with it. Anyway, so he cheated on his wife. His now ex-wife, Jennifer, was left with the house. Jennifer is disabled due to something Jennifer did to herself. I'll get into that later. He cheated on her. This ... Jennifer ... decided that instead of actually working with us to help make an arrangement that would work out for both of us, it would be an absolutely grand idea to do everything from lashing out at us because she doesn't have money to pay the property tax (we paid her rent), to threatening to turn off the electricity because of some other money drama (we still. paid her!) She's also implied that I should go live with my father ... I'd rather empty a hive full of angry bees into my own stomach. Yes, living with him is that tedious, and I'll get into that later too. This is going to be a long one. I probably shouldn't be rambling about all this in public, but I need to put it somewhere ... guess I could go with my journal but I fi9nd I don't really care who knows. So to answer the question, what have I been doing? I've been dealing with a particularly rage-filled woman with nothing better to do with her life than harass a pair of disabled people because she's as dry as the Sahara, and apparently, even if she wasn't, not even her own husband would fuck her. Then again that actually tracks, give him 5 or so years and he gets bored. It's a miracle he lasted 8 years ... and he's already married to someone else again.

What Did Jennifer do to herself?

This isn't really relevant to the current goings-on, but it does show a pattern. On New Year's Eve, my father and his new wife decided it would be fun to go out. Jennifer has MS (important context for later). They both came back drunk ... back then my father was somewhat nice ... I celebrated New Year's alone but he came back 45 minutes later. That was considered good for the time. We were laughing and chatting and having fun. Jennifer decided to go downstairs (their bedroom in that house was downstairs, why would you make someone with MS walk down stairs to go to bed every night?) Naturally, drunk+MS+stairs=someone's gonna fall on their face ... and as usual the math added up. She fell down the stairs. My father, being the absolutely useless thing he is, responds by ... sobbing and running down the stairs. Don't do that! If someone is in medical crisis, sobbing while they're in that much pain is not going to help them. He's done that with me too. Eventually he carried her to bed, and I went off to the bedroom I was using while I was there. The next morning, around 5 or so, knowing she was still probably feeling it, knowing she was probably hung over to some degree, went outside, in the ice, it was around 20 or so degrees at the time, probably lower. She did this ... to smoke a cigarette. She fell down and ended up with frostbitten fingers. The doctors flat out told her they could have saved her if she came in the day it happened. But she didn't. She went to the hospital ... 2 days later. By then it was far too late. She lost most of her fingers. She became really quite bitter after that ... which ... part of me understands that. She'd just lost parts of her body. I'd probably be a bit upset myself. But ... and this may be controversial, I still feel she did it to herself. She should have been resting off a hangover, not going outside in under freezing weather to smoke cigarettes. This ... actually leads neatly into the other thing I said I'd go into earlier in the post.

Why Living with My Father would Be Tedious

I'm not very good with prioritizing, but I'm going to try to take these in somewhat of a prioritized list, from lowest priority to highest. First, by nature, I am a night owl. I stay up at odd hours, and generally my schedule doesn't mesh well with the “societally expected” schedule. When I've stayed with him in the past, he has actively become enraged because I slept during the day. Leads neatly into my next point. Though I have some exposure training with loud noises, my father likes to throw his weight ... and his fists, around with extreme, unprejudiced regularity. You don't do something he wants you to do, you're probably going to get to watch him punch something or slam something. It's his method of control. Not defending it, but stating that ... that's how it is, and nothing anyone does is going to change it. Despite the fact that he likes to throw his weight around, when I last stayed with him, I was the one accused of being a “bull in a china shop”. Why? Because I dared ... get this ... to use a microwave. Yep. He'd told me the night before, that I had food in the fridge and that he'd made me something. Nice of him. He said I could have it whenever I wanted. Me, taking that literally because of course I did, goes out quietly and makes it around 6 the next morning because I was hungry. Not 3 minutes in, he comes charging out of his bedroom to rip me like 18 new assholes because I was being like a bull in a china shop ... for the record, I had put a paper plate in the microwave, closed the door and started it warming up the food. To this day (it happened in 2018) I still do not understand how using a microwave is like a bull in a china shop. And lastly, there's the whole ... medical thing. When he's scared, or in a medical situation that's out of his depth, he usually goes between crying and being enraged at the very concept of a medical issue. One time when we'd first moved into this house, one of the roommates had an allergic reaction and had to go to the hospital. Not 3 minutes after they left, I got a raging phone call from my father about how he didn't want his house to be a “revolving door of ambulances”. Another time I had to go to the hospital, I got a screaming call literally while I was on the stretcher, paramedics loading me into the vehicle, and my father screaming his absolute head off over why I dared to go to the hospital. That one's ... the biggest one. I really don't want to go live with my dad. Oh ... and just to throw together a nice ending paragraph on this ass disaster, if I lived with him, I would never be allowed to leave, as he's not behind anything like uber. I'd never get to get food delivered, he's not behind uber and food delivery is uber to him. I'd never get to go to my doctor appointments by myself, medicaid transit, on the rare occasion they do their jobs, is still uber and ... again, he's not behind uber and things he doesn't believe in don't happen near his house. If he went to appointments with me he'd know about any medical issues they talked about with me ... because he kinda just ... intimidates his way into most appointments where I'm concerned with his face and his voice and his punching fists and his stupid mustache. I don't actually know if he has a mustache ... but he seems like a mustache guy. And really, at the base of all that, I don't want to live with him because where he lives ... if you're around him things never last more than 10 years. Either he gets bored, runs off and cheats on the person then leaves them like he did to my mother, or they tell him they “don't want older men” which I'm still about 95% convinced Stephanie broke up with him due to the kidnapping prank but ... that's another story. This is a pattern with him. He left my mother. Two years later the bank took the house we were living in and we had to move. He got to stay with his happy little family. Of course, like I said before, that didn't last long. I may tell that story some other time, but I feel I've rambled quite enough about my father and his drama for one post.

Back to the Update

AS I mentioned ... or may have mentioned ... before, I did a stream either yesterday or the day before, feel free to visit the YouTube listed in the signature to find all the things I do when I'm not typing random tangents. I'm probably going to try to do one today, but we'll see. I also did a stream ... Thursday? Either Thursday or Wednesday. I normally don't link the streams in my blog posts, but I'm trying to get better at it. Now ... if I can just remember how to do links in markdown ... Right, I've figured it out. I always forget how to do this, took a bit of google searching. Watch the Playing with Cars stream here And ... Watch the Forza and Tangents stream Here Like I said, I'll be trying for a stream sometime today, but if I don't get one out today, I'll aim for tomorrow, and one way or another I'll try and come back to you with a bit more of a positive blog post next time.

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Hello everyone, It has literally been what seems like an entire age since I last wrote on this thing. I didn't expect to stop writing for so long, but I guess ... such is life sometimes. For those who are curious what in the world I/we have been doing, I have mainly been focused on putting streams up on my YouTube. For those who may have noticed a writing style change, I've found that I don't always write in plural perspective, but instead choose to stick to more singular terms a fair bit of the time. You may have noticed a huge difference from the last post ... and I'm sorry for that. Though I haven't been writing as much as I'd really wanted to, I have been keeping the links that pop up below each post in the signature updated, so definitely feel free to visit those if you find any of our other content interesting. There are two Linktrees now, one for all my main pages and 1 that recommends products. See the signature for more details. If you guys ever want something more in-depth, feel free to email us (email listed in signature) and we'll get on that in the form of a product guide. However, product guides don't really fit in with the style of this blog, so I'll only do those if you guys want them, as I don't want to spam out the entire blog with things nobody's interested in seeing. For the likely few of you who ever visited the Life Upgraded kit pages, Kit shut down in May, meaning all that is gone. Hence, all the things that were up there will ... soon ... be up on the shopping page for you guys. Linktree is a bit of a tedium and a half, but it's made for a good place to stack up my product links. If that kind of thing interests you, feel free to visit, all those links can be found below in the signature. I can't remember everything I had in my collections, so if you are looking for that kind of content the links may appear on the shopping linktree slowly, but I will get them up as soon as possible. I will try to make more of an effort to put up more posts here more often ... mainly because I remember that people seemed to somewhat enjoy them. I try not to do very small updates, because each post link leads to its own page and I want to give you all a decent amount of content to read. I think that's it for today. Yes, I'm sticking with a similar somewhat informal style like my other posts. I will try to be back sometime in the near future, but if you guys don't hear from me up here, I do try to post regular streams on the YouTube, so feel free to watch those. They're mainly gaming streams, with a few recorded videos about other things, including a cooking video. Z and I had fun making that. In any case, see you in the next one.

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This is a new section that I've decided to put in as of 11/08/2025. Here, I've listed all my other links of interest, which you may find neat to visit. Visit the Youtube Here Visit our LinkTree here The linktree has many interesting things on it, and also links back to this blog. Visit our shopping page here What is this? This is an aggregated page of all the Amazon products we enjoy or have enjoyed in the past. We use the name Life Upgraded (now Cadence's Finds) on there because we feel the products we've bought and recommend on this page have upgraded or improved our life significantly. This next part is something we have to put near any page recommending product links for legal reasons. We are not pushing our links on anybody, but they're there if you want to see them. Note: I am an Amazon Affiliate. If you choose to buy any of the products listed on any of the pages above, I may make a commission from such purchases. We may add more links to this signature later, if we find more that you may be interested in. Always feel free to visit the YouTube, the Linktree, or the Ko-Fi, listed above, for any other updates that aren't posted here. As always, thank you for reading, and we hope you enjoyed or were otherwise enlightened by this post.

Hello everyone, We actually made it back here to put up another blog post for you guys twice in the same week ... well sort of. Guess it doesn't quite count, since today's Sunday and the last post was on Saturday. So according to the calendar it doesn't count. In any case, we're quite stressed, as we have been for the past day. We truthfully haven't had the energy to get on a stream for you guys, and are very sorry for that. Stress takes a whole lot out of us, and we haven't been able to muster up the energy to do much of anything. This could honestly get rather dangerous rather fast, depending on how long the cause of the stress lasts.

What is the cause of the stress?

We have mentioned this in past posts up here, but our bank account is negative. Another one of our monthly auto-pay things took and we're negative $60 now. We also need $55 to pay off the internet bill. If anyone wants to help us out with that, it would be seriously appreciated. We don't like asking for money, but have continued to try to apply for jobs and gotten no results. At this point, the financial stress is affecting our ability to eat, and is causing z to have an ulcerative colitis flare. If this keeps up we could end up in the hospital.

Other things on our mind

If by some miracle we can get some cash together, pay our bills, and get our stress levels down to a manageable level, we will be attempting a YouTube live stream for you all. The YOuTube channel link is below if you want to visit that page and see all our other content over there. That's pretty much it for today. If anyone wants to help with the financial issues, feel free to visit our support links in the signature. If you can't that's nothing to feel bad about, we appreciate that you stopped by to read the post. Thank you for reading, and as always feedback is welcome via our contact pages listed below.

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If you have any feedback, or want to talk to me directly, you can contact me in the following ways. Email me Visit my mastodon page View and follow our Ko-Fi Blog

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If you enjoy this content, and wish to support my work, feel free to send me money in the following ways: PayPal CashApp

Other Links of Interest

This is a new section that I've decided to put in as of 11/08/2025. Here, I've listed all my other links of interest, which you may find neat to visit. Visit the Youtube Here Visit our LinkTree here The linktree has many interesting things on it, and also links back to this blog. Visit our shopping page here What is this? This is an aggregated page of all the Amazon products we enjoy or have enjoyed in the past. We use the name Life Upgraded (now Cadence's Finds) on there because we feel the products we've bought and recommend on this page have upgraded or improved our life significantly. This next part is something we have to put near any page recommending product links for legal reasons. We are not pushing our links on anybody, but they're there if you want to see them. Note: I am an Amazon Affiliate. If you choose to buy any of the products listed on any of the pages above, I may make a commission from such purchases. We may add more links to this signature later, if we find more that you may be interested in. Always feel free to visit the YouTube, the Linktree, or the Ko-Fi, listed above, for any other updates that aren't posted here. As always, thank you for reading, and we hope you enjoyed or were otherwise enlightened by this post.

Hello everyone, It's been a couple days. Our last update up here was ... rather a hysterical rambling mess. Sorry about that. We'll leave it up, because it's part of the archive now, and we don't believe in deleting stuff for no real reason, but just know, if you read that it's a bit of a mess. We did manage to get rent paid, but really need to find a stable job of some variety. Even if that job is just customer service, at this point I need to be bringing in money of some variety. We still have to pay the internet, and they've tacked on a late fee. We were supposed to have it, but since we had to use cashapp loans to get medicine earlier in the month, they took z's entire paycheck and applied it back to the loan balance and won't give it back. So all the funding we were supposed to have for survival just ... doesn't exist now.

Mastodon Updates

We did manage to find a new mastodon home, though it's the big mastodon.social instance, unfortunately or fortunately depending on how one looks at it. Fortunately because there's a possibility that my reach may go up and I may be able to get my posts around more reliably. Unfortunately because the whole point of the fediverse is decentralization ... I just looked at the user count on this instance. 3020540 users on one instance isn't really all that decentralized. But to be completely point blank honest, we got tired of moving our stuff from small instance to small instance because the little instances kept going down. Once got frustrated about having to move for the 3rd time in 6 months, and got screamed at because, and I quote, mastodon is ever changing, if you don't like moving instances to keep up with the times, go back to twitter. Um ... no thanks. Yes, mastodon is ever changing. Doesn't mean people should have to move instances every 3 months. But that's done with, and part of me is glad we're on the big instance. It's been up since 2018 at least.

What's next?

Right now, we're just trying to get some cash together to survive. We will possibly get on youtube and make a livestream, if we can get our stress reactions to a manageable level because trying to stream while stress hormones make mush out of your soul really doesn't work. Might do so anyway ... play some hearthstone for you guys or ... I don't know, get out the video game controller and pull up forza for a bit. Thought about singing on livestream, but A, I'm really self-conscious, and B, if I did that I'd have to get the setup just right or you'd have instrumental playing at one time and my voice like 3 seconds after. I know it can be done, we've seen the hackerlink vods on youtube. For those of you who don't know, hackerlink is this girl (she probably has a different name but the name on the page is hackerlink) she sings random songs on her stream and it's rather neat to watch. A bit confusing because she keeps calling random things “sick pranks”, but her voice is pretty so I ignore the confusing bits and pay attention to the music. She was introduced to us by a friend who also enjoys music, but we're leaving their name out of this because we haven't been given permission to post about them and posting about people without their permission is quite rude. I think we've said all that there is to be said today. We'll probably be back with another one of these tomorrow or in a few days, and will try to get on youtube for you before then. Feel free to visit the mastodon, the link in the signature has been fixed to direct to the new profile.

Contact Me

If you have any feedback, or want to talk to me directly, you can contact me in the following ways. Email me Visit my mastodon page View and follow our Ko-Fi Blog

Support Us

If you enjoy this content, and wish to support my work, feel free to send me money in the following ways: PayPal CashApp

Other Links of Interest

This is a new section that I've decided to put in as of 11/08/2025. Here, I've listed all my other links of interest, which you may find neat to visit. Visit the Youtube Here Visit our LinkTree here The linktree has many interesting things on it, and also links back to this blog. Visit our shopping page here What is this? This is an aggregated page of all the Amazon products we enjoy or have enjoyed in the past. We use the name Life Upgraded (now Cadence's Finds) on there because we feel the products we've bought and recommend on this page have upgraded or improved our life significantly. This next part is something we have to put near any page recommending product links for legal reasons. We are not pushing our links on anybody, but they're there if you want to see them. Note: I am an Amazon Affiliate. If you choose to buy any of the products listed on any of the pages above, I may make a commission from such purchases. We may add more links to this signature later, if we find more that you may be interested in. Always feel free to visit the YouTube, the Linktree, or the Ko-Fi, listed above, for any other updates that aren't posted here. As always, thank you for reading, and we hope you enjoyed or were otherwise enlightened by this post.

Hello everyone, Sorry we've been off the grid lately and not really engaging. It wasn't on purpose. We've been super stressed about rent and bills, and haven't been able to get the money to pay them. On top of that, the mastodon instance we used to live on went down due to the server admin being unable to afford the payments. We're not mad at them. Money troubles happen, we're no stranger to those. Frustrated? Definitely, but not at them. They didn't just decide to take down the server. Anyway, that makes it pretty much impossible to get my content around... we're trying to build a new online network ... it's slow progress. On top of that, we're still having money troubles, and need to get cash together to pay the rest of our rent and bills. Rent itself is $370, or rather, the half of rent we weren't able to pay is $370. internet is $45, probably $60 now with the late fee. And a bunch of our other stuff that's on auto-pay took from my account so that's negative too. We are incredibly stressed. We have to at the very least get the rent paid or we could end up homeless. Other bills ... while the collectors annoy me, other bills can come later. The top priority is rent. Two people with autoimmune conditions can't survive in winter ... even if it is a Texas winter. We'll try to come back to you guys with something a bit more positive next time. We wanted to update those who read this little corner of the internet. If anyone can help, it would be appreciated. Our financial info is below, PayPal, Ko-Fi, and cashapp. If you have to use the ko-fi or want to put it on a monthly scale, go ahead, but if you are able to send directly to the paypal or cashapp, please, please do. Ko-Fi takes some of the money I get off the top as a fee for hosting the page or something. Anyway ... we'll possibly be back sometime soon. Possibly ... not. Depending on how things go.

Contact Me

If you have any feedback, or want to talk to me directly, you can contact me in the following ways. Email me Visit my mastodon page View and follow our Ko-Fi Blog

Support Us

If you enjoy this content, and wish to support my work, feel free to send me money in the following ways: PayPal CashApp

Other Links of Interest

This is a new section that I've decided to put in as of 11/08/2025. Here, I've listed all my other links of interest, which you may find neat to visit. Visit the Youtube Here Visit our LinkTree here The linktree has many interesting things on it, and also links back to this blog. Visit our shopping page here What is this? This is an aggregated page of all the Amazon products we enjoy or have enjoyed in the past. We use the name Life Upgraded (now Cadence's Finds) on there because we feel the products we've bought and recommend on this page have upgraded or improved our life significantly. This next part is something we have to put near any page recommending product links for legal reasons. We are not pushing our links on anybody, but they're there if you want to see them. Note: I am an Amazon Affiliate. If you choose to buy any of the products listed on any of the pages above, I may make a commission from such purchases. We may add more links to this signature later, if we find more that you may be interested in. Always feel free to visit the YouTube, the Linktree, or the Ko-Fi, listed above, for any other updates that aren't posted here. As always, thank you for reading, and we hope you enjoyed or were otherwise enlightened by this post.

Hello everyone, We're back a bit sooner than we thought we would be ... mainly because we're really stressed out and writing helps us to be a little less stressed out.

Why are we stressed out?

For those of you who follow our mastodon, you'll know this, but for those of you who don't, this is something new. We got all the monthly benefits we're going to get this month, but are almost definitely not going to have enough cash to pay off rent, internet, electric, and our other payments we have. I'm honestly worried we may end up homeless, and since both of us have chronic paina nd autoimmune disorders, this could be dangerous. With that out of the way, back to our regularly scheduled blog update.

What Have We Been Doing?

Besides stressing ourselves out over this financial issue, we've also managed to do a YouTube livestream in the past couple days. It was fun, being able to play Hearthstone and talk to the viewers. I like doing it. I've also been resting because ... yet again, more chronic pain. It's a bitch. But I did get something on the YouTube for people, and that makes me very happy.

Blog Related Updates

Not much to say here, but we are sorry we didn't manage to get another post in near the end of November. We are glad to be back here now though, and posting for you, even if it's not entirely for a good reason, we're trying to make as much of this post positive as we can. So in a way, 4 or 5 days is better than the month/months we went without posting in the past. So we're trying to get better. And we plan to do a livestream maybe sometime tonight or tomorrow if we have enough energy.

Money Related Updates

Note: This section is not here as an attempt to make anyone feel obligated. If you are able to help and wish to, please feel free to visit the links linked in the signature and do so. If you can't help, please try not to feel guilty or in any way obligated. We understand that everyone has their own situations, and their own needs, and may not always, or even usually, be able to assist, and we thank all of you in advance for reading this post and the below section at all. (Yes, this was copied from a past post, but it still stands.) Due to receiving our benefits, we did get the negative account balance sorted before the bank took any insufficient funds fees. But ... due to the negative account balance, which occurred due to some bills, we now don't have enough cash to pay our beginning of the month bills. So that's our new goal, anything that comes our way will go to that, and to cleaning supplies and other household essentials. For instance, I still need to get a wheelchair so that I can go out more often, which would likely help me not to feel as much pain. When I was in one in the past, it did help a little bit, so long as I didn't use it all the time and did some stretches and exercises.

YouTube Updates

We discussed this in a couple of the previous sections, but as mentioned there, we did a livestream a couple days ago. The link for the YouTube page is in the signature, and the link to the live page is in our mastodon. Visit This Page for the livestreams However, we've put the link to the livestreams page here anyways. As mentioned in the last post, when we're actively streaming, that link will take you directly to our active live. When we're not streaming, it will take you to the page that displays our lives in order of newest to oldest.

Financial Life Goals

As mentioned in the past few posts, we're trying to get more consistent, so we're keeping up the life goals sections. 1. Most importantly, we're trying to get the cash to pay our bills. The goal for that, as listed on our mastodon, is open-ended, anything we get will go toward that. 2. We're also still working on getting the money together to go to the SSA for Z's stuff. Again, don't know how much of that z wants shared, but that's still happening.

Non-Financial Goals

To keep with the consistency of the last post, we're now moving onto non-financial goals. They're pretty much the same as what they were 4 days ago, but I'm putting them here for the sake of consistency. 1. I'm still hoping to get more posts put up on the blog so you guys have more content to read. 2. I am also hoping to get back into the recording schedule for the YouTube, along with livestreaming. If Z is interested, we'll do some combination streams.

Updates Regarding LInks

Over the past few days, I have also added some products to my kit.co page, which can be viewed from the signature. I know a lot of people don't like product placement, and that's why these are near the bottom of my pages. That way you can read the content you came here to read, and if you want to go look at my product pages, you can do so. It's mostly tea and snacks and random kitchen gadgets, but they're there to be looked at and bought should you wish to buy them.

Closing

We hope you have enjoyed this post, or have otherwise been enlightened by it. If you wish to support us financially, those links are in the signature. If you wish to visit our YouTube page that link is both in the signature, and available above if you want to go directly to the lives page. As always, stay tuned to my Mastodon for any spur of the moment live updates, with us they come at the most random times of the day. If you have any feedback or wish to contact us for any other reason, those links are in the signature, both our email and mastodon. See you in the next one.

Contact Me

If you have any feedback, or want to talk to me directly, you can contact me in the following ways. Email me Visit my mastodon page View and follow our Ko-Fi Blog

Support Us

If you enjoy this content, and wish to support my work, feel free to send me money in the following ways: PayPal CashApp

Other Links of Interest

This is a new section that I've decided to put in as of 11/08/2025. Here, I've listed all my other links of interest, which you may find neat to visit. Visit the Youtube Here Visit our LinkTree here The linktree has many interesting things on it, and also links back to this blog. Visit our shopping page here What is this? This is an aggregated page of all the Amazon products we enjoy or have enjoyed in the past. We use the name Life Upgraded (now Cadence's Finds) on there because we feel the products we've bought and recommend on this page have upgraded or improved our life significantly. This next part is something we have to put near any page recommending product links for legal reasons. We are not pushing our links on anybody, but they're there if you want to see them. Note: I am an Amazon Affiliate. If you choose to buy any of the products listed on any of the pages above, I may make a commission from such purchases. We may add more links to this signature later, if we find more that you may be interested in. Always feel free to visit the YouTube, the Linktree, or the Ko-Fi, listed above, for any other updates that aren't posted here. As always, thank you for reading, and we hope you enjoyed or were otherwise enlightened by this post.