Nobody cares
M so fucking tired and shivering after crying so much
Why i want friendships, why I want it even it's one sided
My friendship is not worth to them
Even after expressing I am hurt, they just leave me
Maybe only cz I m expressing
I need them so I just stay no matter how much they insult me by being rude to me
I just want to hear some good words but it's wrong why would they do it for me
I mean nothing to them when i m losing myself for them. All my cool, peace is gone.
And they don't see it, they don't feel anything
All they want it fun that's all
No life in relationship
Sadness
This loneliness
This sadness
I just should stop expecting from people
No one is mine here
No one is true friend
Just PPL
Whom we see
No one is ours
No one truly for u
No one really wanna feel u
Still we here
Finding someone
Finding the true friend
This ever gonna be the ryt place for me
This ever gonna give me the happiness i deserve
This ever gonna give me the friend i was looking for
This ever gonna understand who good I m at heart
Sadness
This loneliness
This sadness
I just should stop expecting from people
No one is mine here
No one is true friend
Just PPL
Whom we see
No one is ours
No one truly for u
No one really wanna feel u
Still we here
Finding someone
Finding the true friend
This ever gonna be the ryt place for me
This ever gonna give me the happiness i deserve
This ever gonna give me the friend i was looking for
This ever gonna understand who good I m at heart
Tried enough I want to be a mother now
So much of struggle
So much of patience
So much of wait
All I now want is to be mother
A mother of a kid who is cute
Lovable and mine
I m so tired of waiting now
All the trauma I have gone through pre and post IVF got me into sadness
I became so sensitive after all this
Now can't handle this
All I want is happiness and my family.
Everything to be together
Enough of cries sadness and depression
Come into my life baby 🐥
Loneliness
I have no one to talk to or share my emotions
What talks- daily casual routines, checking on each other well being
Emotions- care loneliness friendship
I try my best to connect to people.
But without anything happening I lose them.everytime it's sudden.
They just get busy or say it atleast that they are busy. Is it cz I am married?
Or is it that i don't give a nice vibe?
But I m friendly, I care for them more than myself.
Then what goes wrong.
Why I am always left out to be alone
I cry almost everyday thinking of this.
It's affecting me so much that I can't be living normal
Should I leave everything and go away
How will that help
I m so tired of myself in finding the answers
Shouldn't be making friends or waiting for any.
They don't even say what happened. Just say nothing i am busy.
Closest friends who used to talk for hours also vanished just like that.
What's my fault????
Starting this on 10 Feb 2024
To share my emotions and thoughts
So I can take them out of my mind and be relaxed.