Loneliness

I have no one to talk to or share my emotions What talks- daily casual routines, checking on each other well being Emotions- care loneliness friendship

I try my best to connect to people. But without anything happening I lose them.everytime it's sudden. They just get busy or say it atleast that they are busy. Is it cz I am married? Or is it that i don't give a nice vibe? But I m friendly, I care for them more than myself. Then what goes wrong. Why I am always left out to be alone I cry almost everyday thinking of this. It's affecting me so much that I can't be living normal Should I leave everything and go away How will that help I m so tired of myself in finding the answers Shouldn't be making friends or waiting for any. They don't even say what happened. Just say nothing i am busy. Closest friends who used to talk for hours also vanished just like that.

What's my fault????