are you serious?
why. why the FUCK would you break no contact with me. it’s been 2, almost 3 fucking months without speaking. what possible reason could you have for breaking no contact. you drive me fucking insane. you have angie annoyed, Milca and Vanessa pissed off, and my other friends just rolling their eyes at you. you are public enemy #1 to everyone in my life when it comes to me. a fuck up. nobody fucking likes you. except me, unfortunately. it took a lot of willpower to not add you back, really, it did. but my life can’t move forward if I take you back in my life.
I’ve been doing some reminiscing & I recalled the time I sat on my exes couch while you told me the sweetest words. How you liked me, how you didn’t want me to disappear, just the sweetest fucking words. I miss you so much. You didn’t just burn my life into flames, but also shone a light with those flames on the emptiest parts of me.
Why do you want me to add you back. Even worse, why am I almost considering it.
If only you knew the extent to how hard I’ve stalked you. Then you’d truly want nothing to do with me.
What would change if you came back into my life. For starters, I would demand certain things before we could ever move forward:
- don’t hide shit from me anymore. tell me about max, anney, tell me what weird groceries Ashley bought, tell me about Ryan, tell me about life after Judy. TELL ME about your fucking life instead of hiding it.
- APOLOGIZE. you NEVER apologize and if we’re ever going to be back in each others lives, it’s not starting until an apology is given.
- own up to your shit. why the fuck do you constantly ghost me and rearrange everything when I needed you most.
“needed you most” – oh but Irene, shouldn’t you lower your expectations of Josh? that’s too many eggs in his basket, no?
I CAN’T lower my expectations. not when it comes to you. that’s the FUCKING problem. you continue to disappoint me at every fucking corner and I’M NOT ABLE TO DECREASE MY FEELINGS FOR YOU. the ONLY option was to leave.
so it’s either you tell angie why the fuck you’re trying to re-enter my life, or you fuck right off. for both our sakes, I hope you come from a place of hostility instead of reconciliation. because what the fuck are you trying to do by re-entering my life, dumbass.